Conference Weekend

No Why Couldn't I have fixed that for Conference

This is the 1st year since Matt and I have been married that we stayed home for Conference. Usually we do a road trip and just listen on the radio. Man have I been missing out. I loved that we just stayed home ate a good breakfast, lunch and snuggled up on the couch and watched. No being sick had nothing to do with being on the couch ok. I really did gain a stronger testimony over this weekends conference. It seemed like all the talks I was awake for (terrible I know) were meant just for me. I learned two valuable things, or I feel they are valuable for me.
1: I judge way to much. Seriously, I am constantly telling Matt. Gosh, why did that person do that, gosh, why didn't that person do that. If I were them I would....The fact is everyone doesn't need to be like me and that is great! Everyone doesn't have to agree with me and that is great! I was taught to love all those around me, we are all daughters and sons of heavenly father. Somewhere along the way I had forgotten that. How grateful I am for the words that were spoken and went deep into my heart.
2: Children will come when they are ready. That may not even be in this lifetime. I have instead been blessed with wonderful nieces and nephews, cousins and a wonderful eternal companion. Elder Nielsen? spoke of a couple who were asked if they have children after being married for years. I too have had many people ask, "You've been married for 4 years, when are you going to have children?". For most this is a normal question to ask as well as answer. For me it was not so easy, I have learned that people mean well. And yes while it is sometimes emotional for me to accept and answer that question it is making me a stronger person. We are very fortunate that the possibility to have our own biological children is still an option, just more difficult. This talk did make me feel so much better and relax about the AWESOME trial that I have been blessed with the opportunity to endure. As I do now see it as just that, a blessing. I am becoming a better and stronger person and in turn have a close relationship with the Lord and with Matt.