Conference Weekend

No Why Couldn't I have fixed that for Conference

This is the 1st year since Matt and I have been married that we stayed home for Conference. Usually we do a road trip and just listen on the radio. Man have I been missing out. I loved that we just stayed home ate a good breakfast, lunch and snuggled up on the couch and watched. No being sick had nothing to do with being on the couch ok. I really did gain a stronger testimony over this weekends conference. It seemed like all the talks I was awake for (terrible I know) were meant just for me. I learned two valuable things, or I feel they are valuable for me.
1: I judge way to much. Seriously, I am constantly telling Matt. Gosh, why did that person do that, gosh, why didn't that person do that. If I were them I would....The fact is everyone doesn't need to be like me and that is great! Everyone doesn't have to agree with me and that is great! I was taught to love all those around me, we are all daughters and sons of heavenly father. Somewhere along the way I had forgotten that. How grateful I am for the words that were spoken and went deep into my heart.
2: Children will come when they are ready. That may not even be in this lifetime. I have instead been blessed with wonderful nieces and nephews, cousins and a wonderful eternal companion. Elder Nielsen? spoke of a couple who were asked if they have children after being married for years. I too have had many people ask, "You've been married for 4 years, when are you going to have children?". For most this is a normal question to ask as well as answer. For me it was not so easy, I have learned that people mean well. And yes while it is sometimes emotional for me to accept and answer that question it is making me a stronger person. We are very fortunate that the possibility to have our own biological children is still an option, just more difficult. This talk did make me feel so much better and relax about the AWESOME trial that I have been blessed with the opportunity to endure. As I do now see it as just that, a blessing. I am becoming a better and stronger person and in turn have a close relationship with the Lord and with Matt.

Light at the End of the Tunnel

So for the past 5 months I have been saying I need to loose weight I need to get in shape. Then sadly enough, I go out and eat a shake or a greasy cheeseburger (not hamburger, yuck). Final I am ready to act upon it. I have been going to the gym for awhile and working out, but honestly I haven't been giving it a 100%. What can I say I love food! At our last meeting the dr. recommended that I loose some weight that it can help. Gee thanks dr. was what ran through my mind at the time. He said it in a very kind and loving way. Hello it's weight though is there any kind and loving way to say hmmm hmm you're about 46 pds over weight. So here it goes, my journey towards weight loss to hopefully help with getting a little baby eventually and healthier life. Even if I don't get to carry it in my belly there will be lots of running around later and I need to be in shape for that.

I met with my personal trainer today Juliette and she is WONDERFUL!!! She has helped me become a morning person (the only time I can/should work out with work and all) as well as boost my confidence. Today I took, gulp, the body measurements and weight and fat tests. FAIL FAIL FAIL! I am so happy that I did though and am now able to loose this weight and be well ME again. Bring on the support system :)

Staring Out Measurements/Weight:
Weight- 158 lbs
Body Fat- 34.1% (hmm mmm are the batteries new, really it's that much)
Chest- 39 1/2 ---that could stay the same I am ok with being endowed
Waist- 36
Upper Arm- 14
Butt- 43 (matt will miss that TMI)
Thigh- 25 1/2
Calf-16

I am not just posting this to give me motivation but so my family knows my measurements and can if they so choose buy me, none else than clothes for Christmas. Mom if you get the size wrong this year, there's no hope for the future. (Just in case) No I no longer wear x-small.