It all Counts

So many things that I have forgotten to write about: Christmas, new years, my birthday (so old now), valentines, buying a new truck, and an organizing rampage! Oh well, fresh starts are always good. 

The past few months seem like they have been a complete rollercoaster. Our lives never seem to settle down...at all. We have finally decided to do in-vetro after years of trying on our own and other fertility options! Now that we know we get to do that the reality has set in. All the fears, excitement, and anxiety of becoming a parent are very apparent. Yes, I suppose it has been there for the past 3 years but now even more so. We just have to figure out when we want to get it done now. My favorite is hearing the Dr say, well it would be helpful if you lost some weight...Really he seriously said it like that. So I am trying super hard to accomplish that. In the same breath he says yes I understand with the fertility medication, with your high blood sugar, and stress levels this will be difficult but it would be helpful. Are ya freakin kidding me! It is crazy the trials we all get to face in life! For awhile I (selfishly) kept thinking gosh this trial sucks. After analyzing the big spectrum I realized (yet again) it is not that bad.

Another thing in the making, I contemplate every week if I want to go back to school and get a degree in...hmmm... ya I don't know.  Then I remember how much work, time, and effort school took the first time and I quickly change my mind. So instead of that goal, sewing, dancing and cooking have become my new goals! 

Matt is busy as usual building houses in midway, managing all the properties, the insurance work and spending time with me. When does he sleep you ask? Well he doesn't, I mean 2 hrs a night isn't sleep right..that's a cat nap. It might be because he HATES our bed (which i agree it is a little uncomfortable). So I finally broke down and bought a new bed this week! Super excited about that.

For now life is calming down and we are even (cross my fingers and hold my breath), thinking about taking a vacation. We shall see how that pans out :)