20 Weeks

It seems time is flying by and I am doing my best to take in as much of this experience as possible!!!

Things I Love about being pregnant:
-Feeling her move
-Having an overwhelming sense of joy, gratitude
-Not being sick
-Maternity Clothes aka my pajamas
-Taking frequent naps (and it being ok)
-Working Less
-The belly rubs
-Planning
-No stretch marks (yet) wahoo:)
-3 a.m. tangents about what she will look like, what we need to do, something I just read

Things I DO NOT Love about being pregnant:
-Getting gal stones
-Paranoia about something going wrong
-Nightmares
-Foggy Brain
-Sleeping on my side
-Taking my nightly shots...that I am allergic too

We only have 4 more months until Ali is here and we are jumping up and down for joy. I cannot wait to meet her and Matt cannot wait to have his "wife" back. I don't know if it is just me but being pregnant has made me crazy! I am grateful I have a wonderful husband by my side who puts up with me, helps me, and is just plain amazing. This pregnancy has been wonderful in the sense I have not had the standard pregnant woman sickness. I hope the next 4 months continue to be this great!!

20 Weeks

An Alligator of Course

From the beginning of my pregnancy Matt and I both thought it was a little girl. However, just like most men matt wanted a little boy first. A big brother to be the defender for his little sisters. It looks like we were both right though and are getting out precious little girl first and couldn't be more excited!

When we had our first ultrasound at 4 weeks she looked like a little alligator and so we nicknamed her Al and often times still call her that. We had many names picked out for a little boy but not many for a little girl. Madison was what we both have always wanted to name our first little girl. When we found out it was a little girl we both looked at each other and said "Hey, I think we are supposed to name her Ali". It was such a strong impression we knew right then that Ali was the name we would call her. So it is that our little girls name first came about from an ultrasound that resembled and alligator.

 Matt picked out Aliyah and we will call her Ali for short. Lindsay is my mothers maiden name as well as my middle name so we decided to name her Aliyah Lindsay Rawlings. Yes, it is a mouth full but we love it!!!

Our Little Miracle

For years now I have pondered and dreamed of what it would be like for Matt and I to have children. There were a lot of low moments through out these years. My friends would get pregnant, and while I was thrilled for them I also hated them. It was difficult to go through miscarriages and feel like I let myself down, and let Matt down. Now I can see how all of those trials and the heart ache have paid off. I am now 5 MONTHS pregnant with our little girl!
             When we first found out that our second round of in-vetro worked we were excited and also extremely scared! Here we have been preparing for year but are we truly ready, gosh was that the right timing? I know more now than ever that yes, we are ready and this is the right time.
             It is such a blessling and miracle to have this little human growing inside of me. She is my strength when I am blue and my humbler in every way. She has brought such joy to matt and I and we cannot wait until we meet her!

XO XO XO