20 Weeks

It seems time is flying by and I am doing my best to take in as much of this experience as possible!!!

Things I Love about being pregnant:
-Feeling her move
-Having an overwhelming sense of joy, gratitude
-Not being sick
-Maternity Clothes aka my pajamas
-Taking frequent naps (and it being ok)
-Working Less
-The belly rubs
-Planning
-No stretch marks (yet) wahoo:)
-3 a.m. tangents about what she will look like, what we need to do, something I just read

Things I DO NOT Love about being pregnant:
-Getting gal stones
-Paranoia about something going wrong
-Nightmares
-Foggy Brain
-Sleeping on my side
-Taking my nightly shots...that I am allergic too

We only have 4 more months until Ali is here and we are jumping up and down for joy. I cannot wait to meet her and Matt cannot wait to have his "wife" back. I don't know if it is just me but being pregnant has made me crazy! I am grateful I have a wonderful husband by my side who puts up with me, helps me, and is just plain amazing. This pregnancy has been wonderful in the sense I have not had the standard pregnant woman sickness. I hope the next 4 months continue to be this great!!

20 Weeks

An Alligator of Course

From the beginning of my pregnancy Matt and I both thought it was a little girl. However, just like most men matt wanted a little boy first. A big brother to be the defender for his little sisters. It looks like we were both right though and are getting out precious little girl first and couldn't be more excited!

When we had our first ultrasound at 4 weeks she looked like a little alligator and so we nicknamed her Al and often times still call her that. We had many names picked out for a little boy but not many for a little girl. Madison was what we both have always wanted to name our first little girl. When we found out it was a little girl we both looked at each other and said "Hey, I think we are supposed to name her Ali". It was such a strong impression we knew right then that Ali was the name we would call her. So it is that our little girls name first came about from an ultrasound that resembled and alligator.

 Matt picked out Aliyah and we will call her Ali for short. Lindsay is my mothers maiden name as well as my middle name so we decided to name her Aliyah Lindsay Rawlings. Yes, it is a mouth full but we love it!!!

Our Little Miracle

For years now I have pondered and dreamed of what it would be like for Matt and I to have children. There were a lot of low moments through out these years. My friends would get pregnant, and while I was thrilled for them I also hated them. It was difficult to go through miscarriages and feel like I let myself down, and let Matt down. Now I can see how all of those trials and the heart ache have paid off. I am now 5 MONTHS pregnant with our little girl!
             When we first found out that our second round of in-vetro worked we were excited and also extremely scared! Here we have been preparing for year but are we truly ready, gosh was that the right timing? I know more now than ever that yes, we are ready and this is the right time.
             It is such a blessling and miracle to have this little human growing inside of me. She is my strength when I am blue and my humbler in every way. She has brought such joy to matt and I and we cannot wait until we meet her!

XO XO XO

Wait for it Wait for it

Yes it is true we are going to HAWAII!!! So excited for a vacation with my hubby and some amazing friends! We shall enjoy the comfort of the beach, the resort, and oh yes not having to work. Ok, ok who am I kidding we will still be working from our phones while on vacation. Welcome to ownership. I am looking forward to the sunshine and time with Matt though!

Our amazing resort Westin Princville

It all Counts

So many things that I have forgotten to write about: Christmas, new years, my birthday (so old now), valentines, buying a new truck, and an organizing rampage! Oh well, fresh starts are always good. 

The past few months seem like they have been a complete rollercoaster. Our lives never seem to settle down...at all. We have finally decided to do in-vetro after years of trying on our own and other fertility options! Now that we know we get to do that the reality has set in. All the fears, excitement, and anxiety of becoming a parent are very apparent. Yes, I suppose it has been there for the past 3 years but now even more so. We just have to figure out when we want to get it done now. My favorite is hearing the Dr say, well it would be helpful if you lost some weight...Really he seriously said it like that. So I am trying super hard to accomplish that. In the same breath he says yes I understand with the fertility medication, with your high blood sugar, and stress levels this will be difficult but it would be helpful. Are ya freakin kidding me! It is crazy the trials we all get to face in life! For awhile I (selfishly) kept thinking gosh this trial sucks. After analyzing the big spectrum I realized (yet again) it is not that bad.

Another thing in the making, I contemplate every week if I want to go back to school and get a degree in...hmmm... ya I don't know.  Then I remember how much work, time, and effort school took the first time and I quickly change my mind. So instead of that goal, sewing, dancing and cooking have become my new goals! 

Matt is busy as usual building houses in midway, managing all the properties, the insurance work and spending time with me. When does he sleep you ask? Well he doesn't, I mean 2 hrs a night isn't sleep right..that's a cat nap. It might be because he HATES our bed (which i agree it is a little uncomfortable). So I finally broke down and bought a new bed this week! Super excited about that.

For now life is calming down and we are even (cross my fingers and hold my breath), thinking about taking a vacation. We shall see how that pans out :)